"I am extraordinarily patient, provided I get my own way in the end."
Margaret Thatcher, in Observer April 4, 1989

i don't know who said this but i agree:
"Hell is empty and all the devils are here."

"Lately, I have come to believe that the principle difference between heaven and hell is the company you keep there."
-- Simon Illyan, from A Civil Campaign by L.M. Bujold

from The Devil's Dictionary by the ultimate cynic Ambrose Bierce :
"Patience: a minor form of despair, disguised as a virtue."
"Diplomacy: The patriotic art of lying for one's country."
"Politics: The conduct of public affairs for private advantage."
"Bride, n.: A woman with a fine prospect of happiness behind her."
"Lawyer, n.: One skilled in the circumvention of the law."
"Year, n.: A period of three hundred and sixty-five disappointments."
"Pleasure, n.: The least hateful form of dejection."
"Reverence: the spiritual attitude of a man to a god and a dog to a man."
"Admiration, n.: Our polite recognition of another's resemblance to ourselves."
"Corporation, n.: An ingenious device for obtaining individual profit without individual responsibility."
"Absurdity, n.: A statement or belief manifestly inconsistent with one's own opinion."
"Acquaintance, n.: A person whom we know well enough to borrow from, but not well enough to lend to."
"Admiration, n.: Our polite recognition of another's resemblance to ourselves."
"Bore, n.: A person who talks when you wish him to listen."
"Quotation, n.: The act of repeating erroneously the words of another."
"Cogito cogito ergo cogito sum (I think that I think, therefore I think that I am.)"
"Brain, n.: an apparatus with which we think we think."
"Calamities are of two kinds: misfortunes to ourselves, and good fortune to others."
"Painting: The art of protecting flat surfaces from the weather and exposing them to the critic."
"Politics, n.: Strife of interests masquerading as a contest of principles."
"There is nothing new under the sun but there are lots of old things we don't know."
"Politeness, n.: The most acceptable hypocrisy."
"Truth: An ingenious compound of desirability and appearance."
"Mad, adj.: Affected with a high degree of intellectual independence."
"Love, n.: A temporary insanity curable by marriage."
"Egotist, n.: A person of low taste, more interested in himself than in me."

from Mark Twain:
"Always do right. This will gratify some people and astonish the rest." "Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first."
"Get your facts first, and then you can distort them as much as you please."
"It is better to keep your mouth closed and let people think you are a fool than to open it and remove all doubt."
"Never put off until tomorrow what you can do the day after tomorrow."

from Voltaire:
"If God did not exist, it would be necessary to invent him."

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WHaT'S oN MY SH3LF???

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

i have Conquered the big chill. and the stone is back and blogger is back where i am.

can't say how glad. proxies suck!

on to the things that really matter (to me anyway):
i'd say the big chill is the worst puzzle i have ever come across. i have been walking all over the answer - D*mn! the bloody answer has been right under my freakin' nose and i never recognized it for what it was. i even wrote it on my email to Mr. B. man i feel dumb. i should feel elated now that it's over. but this is one of those puzzles where you feel bummed out first, before feeling relieved =)




vani WaS STaRK RaViNG Mad @T 7:45 PM *

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

gwen - goofing around



smiled at the wrong camera



rock on!!!!

tipsy tipsy tipsy

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pics all hail from cash =)

vani WaS STaRK RaViNG Mad @T 8:39 PM *

Monday, June 27, 2005

morning after is the event after an irreversible fact...

like waking up and finding yourself in a strange bed, in the wrong room, and with no memory of who is the person sleeping next to you

every event is marked by a memory so acute it hurts to remember it.

like the day you found out that you can't go on stoning anymore because the url is blocked
and you cursed the computer until it had to reboot out of shame. and still thestone is blocked and you cursed some more

like the day you found out blogger is blocked as well... duh... for reasons you cannot fathom. because unlike you, the the ayti finds it easier to block out sites you spend bandwidth on rather than spywares. (yes i am bitter!!!) so you have to say goodbye to blogging and forget about updating it daily. so goodbye blog, until the next time i go to an internet cafe then...

but then hello proxy sites...

morning after is also when all the things you did last night came back to hunt you today

like all the things you did last night after you've had your 8th bottle of beer. and All the other things you can't recall that happened that night between the nth bottle of beer and twilight zone.


in every event, memories are created by the most powerful emotion that will make that moment unforgettable. because the strongest emotion defines what will be your action and the result of your choice to act is the THING you will remember during the morning after.

whether it's good or bad - it will always irreversible because there is NO going back. the choice has been made. you can Never go back. Nothing can ever be turned back - especially time. (like domain migrations to pas from atl are now irreversible =)

emotions, like time pass, but the marks left are sometimes lasting. it can ruin great things and build something out of nothing.
morning afters will make you wish desperately that you hadn't - but you just DID - last night in fact.

now today in your most lucid moment, you wish you had the decency to stay moderately sober or moderately drunk. so that the disastrous result(s) of your choice would have been only moderately disastrous. but you wouldn't know "moderate" if it smacked you in the face last night. because last night you were stoned, gone, so far gone to go back.

so today is your morning after. time to face the facts and the inevitable consequences of last night. because today is another day, another moment,
another choice,
another memory in the making.
another time (sober this time)
so choose wisely.

make it matter...

vani WaS STaRK RaViNG Mad @T 11:10 PM * this is a test

i repeat this is a TEST.

ok

blogger is blocked

i repeat blogger is blocked

SOS

SOS

SOS


hay wala!!!!


mayday

mayday

mayday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

vani WaS STaRK RaViNG Mad @T 10:32 PM *

Sunday, June 19, 2005

7am shift - damn early.
should be somehwere else other than this hellhole.
damn the interim


4pm - endshift
damn early
will go home when the sun goes down
not used to the 4pm sun


tomorrow
another day....maybe
but
then
same shit different day

vani WaS STaRK RaViNG Mad @T 10:48 PM *

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

i wanted to grow old, then i wouldn't have to care what other people say. i can do as i please. after all, life is short.

. . . and then when i am old, i would wish i were younger. because life is indeed short. and that is a wish i may come to regret - should've been more careful when it comes to wishing because some wishes do come true. and when i come nearer and nearer to my Time, i will realize how cruel it is! time goes on and will never wait for me. the world will go on even when i ceased to be. i may exist for a short time in it's limited memory. but like any ordinary memory, i will fade. fade away with time. like sands on the shore will eventually be carried away by the tide. i will return to Sea. because it is every sand's destiny (to one day end up at the bottom of the sea). i have come full circle. it is the end of my journey.

vani WaS STaRK RaViNG Mad @T 9:22 PM *

Saturday, June 04, 2005

have forgotten to update this. working overtime on the nudges. finally solved stored mind - what a TRIP! annoying puzzle! i think i need more than nudges on big chill though. i need to get warm or end up with frostbite trying to solve this one.

vani WaS STaRK RaViNG Mad @T 3:23 PM *